a man takes his sadness down to the river and throws it in the river but then he's still left with the river. A man takes his sadness and throws it away but then he's still left with his hands.
( half-glazed eyes focus on a floating form, the blood pounding through his ears— he can’t keep a straight thought—- )
❝— i’m…❞
( his temples throb, a face before his own, a familiar face —- sam. he winces, and the fog parts for a moment, but only just. )
❝fuggin’ peachy.❞
concern clouds his features, tugging his mouth into a frown. his brain switches immediately to hazard mode, cataloguing any external injuries and searching out imperfections.
[there’s nothing there, not really, other than the raw, scraped state of dean’s knuckles. ]
❝ what’s wrong? —- are you hurt? ❞
strong hands grab gently at the sides of his brother’s face, thumbs coming to rest just before dean’s temples.
he isn’t quite sure he heard the statement slipping through resolute lips correctly, and upon clarification, he averts his gaze to face his brother appropriately.
❝ -— ʏᴇᴀʜ, ᴜʜ, ɪ ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ sᴏ. ❞
❝ dean, come on. ❞
it’s not fair. people are dying, people they could save. they’re the b e s t damn hunters around, and dean is keeping him here under lock and key because sam is a little under the weather?
❝ i’m fine. really. ❞
[ the blood spattered on tissues throughout the bunker’s wastebaskets might indicate otherwise, but sam refuses to acknowledge any weakness. ]
❝ —— are you seriously just going to keep me locked up in here? ❞
she felt like a scolded child, in trouble after doing wrong. a small sigh escaped her, feet moving as she took a step away before turning, hand reaching for her drink on the table.
“Yeah, okay..” [ a quick glance up, arched eyebrow as she watched him for a moment ] “Do…D’you want me to come with you?”
it’s a dangerous game that sam is playing with ruby. he’s teetering between dean and ruby, between brother and lover. he can’t stop, though. ruby has him by the throat and dean has him by the heart, and sam knows there’s no way he’s getting out of this w h o l e .
“I’m sorry, Sam — It just takes too much effort for me to fly anymore. I wish I could help but there’s nothing I can do.”
[ castiel had just been spending his time sitting around doing nothing due to his cut off from heaven. ]
❝ cas, come on man, we could really use your help. there has to be something you can do… ❞
[ they’ve dealt with pretty bad before, but come on, this is the fucking apocalypse they’re talking about. it kind of seems like a l o t to put on two boys’ shoulders, even if they are the winchesters. ]
she nodded, arms folded almost awkwardly across her chest. she hated it when he looked at her like that, almost a silent confirmation that she’d done wrong. sighing, she looked up at him, arms falling to her sides. “I will. I jus’…I thought the safety was on..”
it’s strange, seeing ruby so…. vulnerable. sam doesn’t like it. it’s at odds with her character, and it makes him feel all kinds of uneasy. he sighs, letting his hands rest on his hips and is silent for a moment, watching a point over ruby’s head.
❝ i’m gonna… head back, i guess. ❞ [ a short but pregnant pause ] ❝ dean’s not… he should be… out, for a while… ❞
guilt pangs sharply in his chest, and he swallows around the regret in his throat. but still ruby’s been around the block. she should know better than to mess with weapons like that. ❝ it’s fine. just…. be more careful, okay? ❞