a man takes his sadness down to the river and throws it in the river but then he's still left with the river. A man takes his sadness and throws it away but then he's still left with his hands.
She holds out her other hand, awaiting him to place the knife in her palm. Fingers twitch slightly in anticipation, brows furrow as the cool metal touches her skin. She flips the knife open, taking her bottom lip between her teeth as she presses the sharp tip to her palm, slicing the skin where the splinter had become lodged in her skin.
“————Ow.”
he hands her the knife, fingers brushing her palm as he does so. her hands are soft to the touch, or maybe they’ve both got enough callouses that he’s not quite sure what tenderness is any more.
❝ careful. don’t want to take off your whole hand. ❞
"And once the storm is over, you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about."
“ I wanted to believe so badly. It’s so damned hard to do this, what we do. All alone, you know. And there’s so much evil out in the world, Dean, I feel like I could drown in it. And when I think about my destiny, when I think about how I could end up…. I needed to think that there was something else watching too, you know? Some higher power, some greater good. And that maybe I could be saved.”2/9
Sam didn’t know what exactly happened the night his mother died until he was in his twenties. I’m not talking about the demon blood, or Azazel and Mary’s deal coming due. I’m talking about the fact that his father ripped him from his crib while he watched in horror as his wife burnt, then handed the baby to his son and told him to run outside while he tried to go back for his wife. Sam didn’t know Dean carried him out. Sam didn’t know what happened.
And this is “the moment.” That is it, that’s why they’re fighting, why they have to train and essentially be homeless and lie and steal and give up most every semblance of normal. That moment is what defines their existence and their struggle, it is supposed to mean everything to Sam, but no one bothered to tell him about it.
No wonder Sam felt like an outsider in his own family.
YES! I actually made a post about this on my s1 rewatch. He didn’t even know that Dean was the one who carried him out of the house that night. He didn’t know until he was 22 YEARS OLD!!! I think this revelation came in “Home” ???
❝ if i go with you… can you promise that this time it will be final? that if i’m dead, i stay dead. nobody can reverse it, nobody can deal it away…… and nobody else can get hurt because of me. ❞
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rex (rɛks; Eng. rɛks)
n., pl. re•ges (ˈrɛ gɛs; Eng. ˈri dʒiz)
Latin.
——————— king. puerīlis ( pŭĕrīlis ) m, f (neuter puerīle); third declension From puer (“boy”) + -īli Latin.
boyish, youthful ———————
